So this weekend I get a random phone call from someone I haven't talked to in months. I don't answer the phone, I never answer the phone...I'm shitty like that (ok not really I just spend most of my time not talking on the phone). She then texts me and says I'm in the hospital and I just replied I'm sorry to hear that feel better.
I feel like crap about it but after years of a hurtful friendship I had to let go. I can't just keep picking her up everytime she needs help. I only heard from her when she needed something, whether it was a paper to proofread or an ear to listen I was ALWAYS there. Now I can't do it anymore. I got tired of the excess baggage and let go of a lot of them...not just her.
I lost respect for her on her birthday in October this year actually. I made arrangements so that I could have someone watch my one month old so I could have dinner with her. She showed up fucking coked out and looked at me and said "I don't want my son anymore." It was at that point that she made me disgusted. I couldn't imagine being able to just dump your 7 year old on your parents. I would kill someone if they tried to take my son away from me. I just don't get the heartlessness...yes I do she is white trash with money.
I think I grew up and she never did and probably won't anytime soon. She wanted to hang with "cooler" people that go out 24/7 and I don't do that anymore. It is just hard to swallow the fact that I lost a friendship that has endured so much over the MANY years.
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